I came in from sitting on the porch and thought, “I don’t ever write anything down anymore.”
My younger self came supplied with notebook and nice pens, ever ready in the bag of dreams, to whip out and. I haven’t kept a serious notebook now in, what? 3 or 4 years. I found myself immediately blaming the computer for making me a slave to it, and thinking the only suitable format for writing was kibbling on it’s square letters and symbols.
But it’s not the computer’s fault I don’t write. It’s my own fault. Or. It’s circumstances. You know.
I wish there were some form of magic where I could just say snap and everything be way way easier. It’s nine o’clock and I am exhausted. I want to write more.
I’m challenging myself to write something. Anything for the next 5 days. I am always so long winded I intimidate myself. But. I need to practice 30 minute writing spells for the next five days to complete a goal for myself. I’m not really a goal maker, so this is a big deal. Because you’re supposed to set goals, right?
I remember being taught that in elementary school, but it didn’t translate to real life for me.
I need to start making goals and lists. Crossing things off gives you a buzz, right? Sure. I’ll believe that.
But I’ll need a notebook for the lists and goals. I need to start writing more. With a pen. Like I did in my previous life.
Before children and struggle.
Anyways. That’s all for the night.